336 hours.

largeThe past two weeks. 14 days. 336 hours, have wrecked me. My mind, body, emotions have burnout. I am nothing and I have nothing to give. So I am waiting away the day, wishing for the darkness, counting down the hours until I can crawl into my bed. And it’s not the way I want to be but I need a new morning, a sunrise, a cup of coffee to save me. To evaporate the loneliness I feel so heavy on my heart.

I’m not ok. I’m not. But what is anyone to do for someone who can’t do anything for themselves? I can only walk each day the best I can, I can’t go up against myself.  I can only manage. I can try again tomorrow to make a path for myself. I can only try to keep the tears at bay when I lay my head on my pillow tonight. I can only hope I don’t shut down the people I love or shut them out of what I’m needing. Because feeling alone? That rocks me to my core. It burns off all my blessings and scares me into silence. Someone take my hand. Take my hand and remind me…

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